Five Minute Friday: Steady

Writing for five unedited minutes on the prompt “Steady” for Five Minute Friday.

After school in my childhood, my sister and I stayed with the “S” family after school. My sister and the youngest boy of the family loved to play in the open field behind the house, while I usually stayed inside and read books. But they begged me to come play with them. The problem was, I had to climb over a gate to get to the field.

The gate was locked by the field’s owner, so we couldn’t swing it open. If you wanted to cross, you had to climb over. And I couldn’t do it.

Those two weren’t terrified of heights like me. They scrambled right over. They even tried to lift me over, but I always panicked and gave up. I was afraid of failure, worried about getting hurt, and embarrassed about my inability in front of two younger kids. So I missed out on fellowship and fun again and again due to my fear of heights.

I still have an extreme fear of heights. I can’t climb three rungs up a ladder without breaking into a full-body sweat. But I had to laugh when I read this verse a few years ago:

With my God I can scale a wall. Psalm 18:29 NIV

As a child I was often paralyzed by fear. Taking risks, whether literal or figurative, caused major panic. I felt unsteady and unsure, because I focused only on my limited ability to accomplish goals.

As my faith grew, my footing became steady. I began scaling emotional and spiritual walls with greater confidence. Me–the one who couldn’t climb a farm fence–scaling even bigger and scarier invisible walls!

I’m still not attempting to climb over real gates, and I try not to step on ladders unless absolutely necessary. But I’m no longer paralyzed by fear in my spirit and emotions. I’m relying on God to give me power to scale the invisible walls I face. He will keep me steady while I’m climbing.

Questions for reflection:

Do you have a fear of heights? How has it affected your life?

How has God empowered you to scale invisible walls with his help?

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  • Susan

    Hi Sarah! I like coming over to your blog – it is a peaceful place on the (sometimes) chaotic world wide web. NO fear of heights here…unless!!!

    • Sarah Geringer

      Thanks Susan! Peace is my focus, and that’s what I want my readers to take away from their visits. Blessings to you!

  • I have a fear of heights though I can manage a household ladder okay. Fear, in general, is something I’ve struggled with internal fears for years and it’s not something that tends to disappear on its own. But we’ve learned where to place our focus haven’t we? Yet, I still need the reminders and friends like you to say, you’re not alone. Thanks Sarah.

    • Sarah Geringer

      Hi Debby, thanks for visiting. Glad to know you can relate to my struggles. Blessings on your weekend!

  • Amy Boyd

    Hi Sarah! Can’t believe that She Speaks is so close now- hopefully we can meet at some point! Thanks for sharing this picture with us. I can see that even though I’m not literally afraid of heights, I am often afraid of going after what God has set in front of me. Thanks for sharing this!! I’m #44 today…

    • Sarah Geringer

      Amy, I would love to meet up with you there! I will be arriving on Wednesday, so if you’re there for Wed/Thurs, look me up before it gets too busy 🙂 I’ll head over to your site to read your take on the prompt. Blessings to you!

  • Absolutely! I am an ex-fraidy cat (that’s what they used to call us when we didn’t take dares in school) … and this post was a powerful memory jog for me. Thank you! rhtm

    • Sarah Geringer

      Hi Rachel, thanks for visiting. I’m sure many people like us are glad they don’t have to face height challenges in P.E. anymore 🙂

  • Andrew Budek-Schmeisser

    Great post, Sarah. I have no fear of heights – I used to work construction and my brain would do a 90-degree shift in orientation, so looking ‘down’ was looking ‘out’. I never bothered with safety equipment; it was just so natural!

    But I’m terribly claustrophobic. A few years ago I had an opportunity to visit an absolutely unique cave system…and I gave up the spot to my wife. There was no way they could get me in there without sedation.

    #1 at FMF this week.

    https://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2017/06/your-dying-spouse-327-whats-heaven-like.html

    • Sarah Geringer

      Our fears definitely take different manifestations. I have arachnophobia and a fear of huge crowds. Also a fear of flying, yet I’m boarding a plane in three weeks. But God will be with me…

  • Mary

    I am like you and suffer from a fear of heights. I also just wasn’t good at climbing up and over things. You would think with four brothers I would have figured it out. I love your analogy of being able to scale emotional and spiritual walls. God provides the steady whenever we are wobbly and He increases our faith as we trust in Him. Thank you for these words.

    • Sarah Geringer

      Ha! I only have sisters. If I had had brothers, they probably would have forced me to face my fears! But I still have never climbed a tree, and I’m really, really OK with it. Thanks for your visit, Mary. Your site is beautiful!

  • Lynne Cole

    Thank you for sharing honestly about your fears. I love the analogy that you have used here about the invisible walls that we are scared of. Only with God’s help can we climb them and not be afraid. Joining you from FMF – #82

  • jennifer smith

    I enjoyed this post today. It really does seem that scaling those spritual walls – that led us to some of the most beautiful places! – are the most difficult to climb!

  • I don’t like heights either, Sarah. I never have. I have learned to scale some of those spiritual walls, though. Each one God has been with me and help me become stronger in Him. I loved reading your post. It’s very encouraging! Blessings to you!